My name is Laiman Wan. I used to be a very quiet and timid person. I constantly felt anxious and afraid of being alone. I was fearful of almost everything. I didn’t even dare to go out on my own. Whenever I needed to go out, my classmates would come to pick me up and take me home afterward. I couldn’t even order food at a fast-food restaurant by myself, so my classmates would help me with that, too.
From a young age, I also struggled deeply with low self-esteem. In second grade, my teacher publicly criticized me in front of the whole class, calling me stupid, lazy, slow, and saying my grades were poor. Those words wounded me deeply, and I began to believe that I was worthless.
The one place I found comfort was by watching television. I loved imagining myself as one of the strong, confident characters I saw on screen. I thought, “There are 24 hours in a day. If I spend my 8 hours of sleep time immersed in TV instead of sleeping, then at least a third of my life could be lived in a world where I could escape.”
Because of my academic struggles, I was placed in a lower-tier secondary school. Although I didn’t develop any bad habits, I don’t recall any joyful moments during that time either. In those days, everything seemed to revolve around academic performance.
Later on, when I had to repeat a year of high school, two classmates, along with two teachers, invited me to church. I had known those classmates since junior high, but during that repeated year, I noticed a striking change in them. They were filled with joy and love, as though they had become entirely new people. When I asked what had happened, they shared that they had come to know Jesus.
I was intrigued by the transformation I saw in them and decided to visit the church with them. There, I heard messages about prophecy in the Bible, eternal life, and God’s judgment. I listened closely and reflected deeply on what I heard. After nearly a year, I was deeply moved by God’s love, and I made the decision to follow Jesus.
From that moment on, my perspective on life changed completely. I came to understand that a person’s worth is not determined by wealth, education, or appearance. Rather, it lies in the value of their life as created and loved by God. “Jesus loved me and gave himself for me” (Galatians 2:20).
I no longer feel worthless or afraid. God is my life, and He is the one Who leads me.
我叫溫麗敏。從前的我是一個非常安靜、內向且常感不安的人。我的內心充滿了孤單與恐懼。我甚至不敢獨自出門，每次外出都需要同學來家裡接我，然後再送我回家。連在快餐店點餐這樣的小事我也無法自己完成，總是依賴同學代勞。從小我就自卑。還記得在小學二年級時，班主任在全班面前公開說我愚鈍、懶惰、反應遲鈍，成績又差。那番話深深刺傷了我，使我認為自己毫無價值。
那時我唯一喜歡做的事情就是看電視。透過電視劇，我可以幻想自己成為那些勇敢、出色的角色。我常想：「一天有二十四小時，若我用睡覺的八小時投入在電視世界中，那我至少有三分之一的時間可以活在自己的夢想裡。」
由於成績不理想，升上中學時當然會被分派到不太好的學校。雖然在那裡沒有學壞，但生活中幾乎沒有快樂的記憶。因為當時的價值觀是將學生的成績視為一切。
升上高中後，我因為需要重讀一年，在那期間，有兩位相識已久的同學及老師邀請我參加教會聚會。我留意到，那兩位同學在重讀那年有了顯著的改變。 她們變得喜樂、充滿愛心，彷彿成了全然不同的人。我好奇她們的轉變，於是跟著她們去了教會。
在教會中，我聽到關於聖經預言的真實性，也聽到了關於死後審判的教導。我認真地聆聽、思考這些信息。將近一年的時間裡，神的愛漸漸觸動了我的心，最後我決志信主，願意跟隨耶穌。
信主之後，我對人生的看法和價值觀徹底改變。我明白人的價值，不在乎外在的財富、學歷或外貌，而是在於人生命本身的價值。
「祂是愛我，為我捨己。」（加拉太書2:20）
如今，我不再自卑，也不再懼怕，因神是我的生命，帶領。